Insomnia ?!

well i decided to ask myself why cant i sleep ?
and i had lost myself into inner thoughts...

Inside my thoughts i realise how torn a part i am and
how humans can poison others humans day after day
Even knowing this they still need each other to live...

after all "happiness only real when shared" (Into the wild)
Ironic...

what all this thing of poison have about my insomnia ?
i'm not really sure... but maybe...no i don't know...

feelings are not supposed to be described...
i'm pretty sure that every one who tried failed...
and made only a faked feeling stimulated by situation
and brain beliefs in it... real feelings comes from "heart"
from moments lived, experienced not from a book...

try at least once to dive into the world
with everything u have and you will
experience real feelings...

but be careful feelings are treacherous
once installed its impossible to be completely
removed and nights of insomnia will probably find you.

therefore Vem sentar-te comigo, Lídia. (R.R.)

and then she simply go on...
like what she had lived was nothing
living everyday like a great party
after all the show must go on...

unfortunately,
every audience has an end...
will it work out ?

A vida é feita de bons e maus dias.

O que acontece quando a vida é feita somente de maus dias ?

so cute song... why all this beautiful scenes are always on movies and not on real lives

:'(

Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore

Drew:
Ive been living with a shadow over head
Ive been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
Ive been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just cant seem to move on

Hugh:
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
Ive been setting aside time,to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

chorus:
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
ohh

Drew:
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
Ive been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that its out there
Theres got to be something for my soul somewhere

Hugh:
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody to get me through the night
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions

Chorus:
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Drew:
There are moments when I don't know if its real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation

Chorus:
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that I'll be there for you in the end

Outra verdade

:(

Uma verdade...

Respirar é facil...
O foda é viver...





*Desculpe-me pelo palavreado mas é a mais bruta e crua verdade

Pain

i didn't ask for any...
but it s keep coming...
until a day that i ll give up...

Cansei de viver

Tão simples quanto o titulo...

por isso agradeço que me esqueçam ^^

O esquecimento faz com que a existencia seja nula,
faz com que passemos pela vida sem sequer os dias se aperceberem de nós.
Pelo menos assim no nada
nada sentirei... decepção não encontrarei...
melancolia viverei...
será como morrer duas vezes...
uma durante a vida e outra na propria morte.

I sux !

that's it.
thx for ur attention.

:(

I'm TIRED

OHH YEAH...
mirror universe

im tired of u and ur eyes
they show a red lived fire
that burns down my soul
who suffer in silence
waiting for a reaction

poor soul...
if she at least knows...
what lives in me is dead...
even she and her thoughts...

poor soul...

J.W. BLACK

I'm BORED...

really bored...

humm lets make more fake smiles...

im drunk i should go bed...

english looks so cool...

love is a fake...
u create a false super image of something so natural
and ur brain simulate what u belive is love...

if love was real and ur hearts knows it...
why if u lost ur memory u ll forget about ur loved one ?
wasnt supposed ur hearts knows it ?
ppl just uses ppl...
it stinks...
it sux

J.W. BLACK

Life algorithm V0.01

void main(string Life){
......if(Desire == Suffer && Live == Desire)
.............Life = Suffer;
......else
.............Death;
}

Mushi-shi

Começei a assistir esse anime hoje ! e fiquei com muito boa impressão dele. A historia é interessante fala sobre uma especie diferente o mushi(lifestream) e os sintomas que podem causar ao depararmos com as suas varias divergencias.

Quem nos guia por essas aventuras é o Ginko um misterioso estudante dos eventos paranormais causados pela especie mushi (aka:mushi-shi).

Resolvi colocar a letra musica de entrada do anime aqui, porque de certa maneira mexou comigo e trouxe alguma melancolia e por algum momento acreditar no amor.

Musica: The Sore Feet Song
Cantada por: Ally Kerr

I walk ten thousand miles,
ten thousand miles, too see you
And every gasp of breath,
I grabbed it just to find you
I climbed up every hill too get to you
I wandered ancient lands too hold just you

and every single step of the way
I pay
Every single night and day
I search for you
through sandstorm and hazy dawn
I reached for you

I stole ten thousand pounds,
ten thousand pounds to see you
I robbed convenience stores
'cause I thought they'd make it easier
I lived of rats and toads and I starved for you
I fought of giant bears and I killed them too

and every single step of the way
I pay
Every single night and day
I search for you
through sandstorm and hazy dawn
I reached for you

I'm tired and I'm weak, but I'm strong for you
I wanna go home but my love gets me through

lalaalalalaalalalalalala
lalaalalalaalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :P

ps: recomendo o site: gendou.com la encontras muitas musicas de animes (senao todas) inclusive essa ! Basta cadastrar e ja esta ;)

Envelhecimento / Aging

Os anos se passaram,
e deixaram essa mascara...
Formada pelo tempo
e forjada pela vida.

--------------------------------------------

The years have passed away,
and left this mask...
Formed by time
and forged by life.

Pequeno prisma cinzendo

Estou perdido
sim realmente perdido.
não importa a direção ou dimenção
ja não consigo me encontrar

A burocracia tomou conta de tudo...
Tudo não passa de uma grande troca de favores...
e favores nao quero eu trocar...

A pureza esta perdida
, o sorriso descolorido
, a amizade poluida
e o amor destruido

Reflexoes de uma madrugada de sexta

Solidão...
ca dentro esta...
a preencher o vazio...
de sentimentos nao sentidos...
mesmos sentimentos que trariam...
um sentido para a minha vida...
que sem sentido vaga...
nessa terra fria e
solitaria...

Dor

Pequena palavra formada por apenas três letras do alfabeto,
mas com poder destruir tanto o corpo como a alma
de um ser irracional ou racional existente.

Vivemos todos os dias dores e dores,
sejam fisicas ou sentimentais,
elas nos atormenta até
a nossa partida
chegar.

Triste manhã de sabado

A tristeza abateu-me logo ao acordar,
e junto a ela trouxe uma antiga dor,
com algumas antigas lagrimas que
ja antes guardava cá dentro.

Bicho papão
no armario está,
corra depressa,
ou nunca mais correrá.

(Bicho papão:mythic creature that terrorize kids on the darkest nights coming from kids wardrobe)

GOOGLE IS ¬GOD

BAH I WANNA ICONS ON FLUXBOX DESKTOP... BUT I DONT WANNA HAVE TO WORK... WHY DONT GOOGLE CONFIGURE THIS SHIT ALONE?! :X AND THEY SAY GOOGLE CAN DO EVERYTHING...


Oh dear GOOGLE,
Searching for you,
i found me, myself
and You.

Lost,
in this world,
Together.